It always strikes me how human beings love dwelling in the field of complaints about everything in their lives... although GOD has created us with a manual of comfort... God told us that happiness is not one of life's qualities... God said that happiness is meant for the afterlife.. he created us and he knows it and he said it and he knows it... and yet we go blindly searching for happiness while all we need is a simple concept called "Satisfaction"-- satisfaction with what comes from GOD, & (accepting and correcting) the wrongness we have inflicted upon ourselves!
I can't say ever, that it's easy to follow this manual... how precise and articulate it is.. God has not meant us to be righteous angels, else he would have made us angels, but God has created angels and has created us; human beings. Every person is born with a path.. a path that is raw enough so that each paves his path in his and her own way..some people choose to plant their road, some choose to destroy it.. some choose to just pave it.. some choose to put signs to help others..etc. Everyone has a road...and road created by God without a single shred of evil...because God only creates the "right" things... and the wrongness is from us, the cracks in our paths, are from us...the crookedness is from us... the deviations are just tests, remember there is a map ..remember the manual..... the roads with their highs and lows are simply a manifestation of how efficiently or poorly we pave them.......these roads should lead to God.. and should be examples for other roads, too!
I am not acting like a back seat driver, giving instructions .. fact of the matter is, I have - just like everyone - deviated, failed the tests, threw away the manuals, scribbled on the maps.. ! Who hasn't!?
However, I came to realize something very important..I used to think that God was punishing me.. I thought God has left me on an unpaved road, unable to walk properly and to tread it comfortably... then why am I on this road for a start!? The exact nonsensical questions that am sure we have all asked..! Why are we here?!
We are here on a mission.. no matter how many questions arise, that were never answered.. we are here on a mission..the mission is simple...
The mission was -- enjoy life, make mistakes, go in the ups and downs, stop at the stoppers, follow the signs, deviate, muck it up but reach God in the End. Always stand corrected.. ! God has made you a human because the only thing that differentiates you from angels is ONE basic Aspect -- "You make mistakes", they don't. This basically means that God has created in your system the tendency to falter!! It's how "You" personally deal with the fault that GOD will question you for!!!
Do you ever think that you will reach GOD with a ROCKET of virtues and righteousness?! No, we only reach out to GOD in the TRUE manner when we mess up.. the most correct way to reach out for God, is "Messing everything up" yet still have a chance to fix; a sense of awareness that could take your hand again and put you on your path after deviating.
So again, it's not your mistake, its how you handle the mistake.. we are equally sinners in front of God, of course each sin is punished differently (Kol Ebn Adam 5ata2) - (wa La tazer wazzerrattan Wezr Okhra) but who hasn't made mistakes!? NONE. So don't be so ashamed, and instead, waste your time on handling this mistake in a manner that brings you closer on your path to your main "target", your main "destination".
Having deviated in the course of life, is the main reason to why i am writing this. No matter how acute or not my deviation angle was, it is still called "deviation"..! My attempt to handle the mistakes, is the "awareness" that takes my hand back on the right path.. !
We are the all the kid that his parents has left in the garden to play with his games.. yet the curious kid ... always interested in leaving the garden... and going out on the streets to explore a different world.. ! The parents told the kid, on this street you can be killed.. but the curious kid just loves the adventure .. and his parents know it.. so he goes out and a car hits him..the kid wouldn't have known that the streets are harmful except by being injured!
WE ARE THIS KID! In this sense - and am trying to simplify this as much as I could -the parents have placed their warning... but would the kid learn of the danger otherwise?! No. The injury made him understand..! Some kids just love those injuries (stupid kids :D) and some prefer to learn.. some realize it could have been more dangerous..some know that could not make it alive the next time! It's a choice "we make".
P.s: exploring is so much fun... God has created us with the tendency to explore MAINLY, else we wouldn't have made the world out of "Raw materials".. but exploring is not so much fun when it becomes self-devastating..there is a fine line between exploration and self-destruction.
A reminder; we injure ourselves and go weep to our parents .. we brought this injury to ourselves but they pay for the treatment... right?! The treatment from our faults was never easy.. it could demand stitching, bandages, it takes alot of blood..alot of tears to heal the wounds that "WE HAVE BROUGHT" to ourselves.
We will never stop doing mistakes, but at least they should not be the same..we just can't get stuck at one mistake and never learn the SAME lesson, and keep other lessons waiting for us.. remaining at grade one or two while we should go to grade three.. !
The path keeps waiting for us to pave the parts we cracked.. some help us on the road, and some just get on our roads to mess them up, but it doesn't matter who does what, as long as we KNOW our destinations and targets. It's OK to encounter all kinds of deep pits .. blockages and the mirages... is there any road void of them!? No.. even the dirty wells.. dug shafts... it's not about them... it's about HOW we handle them!!
You only reach out TO GOD correctly through a mistake and a second, and a third,... it doesn't mean that am justifying mistakes, but they should teach us what to avoid, so that later on we reach our destination faster and more smoothly! Am I right?! The stronger we stand in the face of our weakness.. the faster we reach...and with more concrete basis.. and with STRONGER conviction!
We envy angels.. but they can't do mistakes.. there is a pleasure in doing mistakes... that they don't have.. God has created the angels to serve you and look at how gratitude-less you are.... what level of gratefulness is this!? Those angels who never make mistakes are actually serving YOU (ebn adam el khatta2)..! Are you actually thinking about this in a profound manner?! What VALUE do you have so that GOD creates Angels to serve you and prophets to help you!? Do you realize what Value you have!?
And Yet in the end you think God is punishing you!? The medicine is sour..either endure it for an hour... or live with a deformative injury for the rest of your life..all we need is acceptance... endurance... patience... always trying to reach our "Best selves"
“I asked God for strength that I might achieve. I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey. I asked for health that I might do greater things. I was given infirmity that I might do better things. I asked for riches that I might be happy. I was given poverty that I might be wise. I asked for power that I might have the praise of men. I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God. I asked for all things that I might enjoy life. I was given life that I might enjoy all things. I got nothing that I asked for, but everything I hoped for. Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered. I am, among all men, most richly blessed"
This note is a reminder for me.. whoever wants to find something fruitful about it, can do it and add to my pleasure.. whoever thinks i'm not making sense.. please just keep me fooled. I am enjoying the foolishness if it leads to God and some right answers.
I'm not a strict religious person... I don't care about the names, All I know is that God is in my heart.. forever and always. God bless you all... May he bestows forgiveness upon you..and compassion.
Go to him, he is always waiting for you..
Inspired by my conversation with my lovely two friends, Amir and Mahmoud..
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